YEAH !

blah!!!!!!


i dont know what to say.. life chuggs along like it always dose, nothing much changes coz I'm in warwick. I'm so sick of being here but i dont know where else to go. I hate brisbane!!! i hate being there !!! makes me feel shitty! i had a week off last week and stupidly went to brisbane for melindas birthday, It was crap! The 2 people i actualy want to talk to right now don't seem to be interested in talking to me...! BLAHHH! "Tragedy"

It's okay in a day, I'm staying busy...

Run around just so I don't have to think about thinking


If I was my heart
I'd rather be restless
The second I stop the sleep catches up and I'm breathless
this ache in my chest
Cuz my day is done now
The dark covers me and I cannot run now ...




It's weird that this thing still exists!! how long have I been writting here?? seems like forever!
I feel fine and life seems fine, just dull

Meet you downstairs in the bar and heard
Your rolled up sleeves and your skull t-shirt
You say, "Why did you do it with him today?"
And sniff me out like I was Tanqueray

Cause you're my fella, my guy
Hand me your stella and fly
By the time I'm out the door
You tear me down like Roger Moore

I cheated myself
Like I knew I would
I told ya, I was trouble
You know that I'm no good

Upstairs in bed, with my ex boy,
He's in a place, but I cant get joy,
Thinking of you in the final throes
This is when my buzzer goes

Run out to meet ya chips and pita
You say "When we're married," 'cause you're not bitter
There'll be none of him no more
I cried for you on the kitchen floor

I cheated myself
Like I knew I would
I told ya, I was trouble
You know that I'm no good

Sweet reunion, jamaica and spain
We're like how we were again
I'm in the tub youre on the seat
Lick your lips as I soap my feet

Then you notice little carpet burn
My stomach drops and my guts churn
You shrug and it's the worst
Who truly stuck the knife in first?

I cheated myself like I knew I would
I told ya I was trouble, you know that I'm no good
I cheated myself, like I knew I would
I told ya I was trouble, yeah ya know that I'm no good

FUCKING STUPID !!!!!!!!!!

stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupidstupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid !!!

Take it all off for them
I swear
They'll like it

I'm listening
What they say
Feeling less and less ok
But it's the same
Old story...


How do I fix my head... ?

Don't try to run away...
cause I understand what you're feeling.
Don't try to run away...
cause I understand the pain that's tearing you
apart.

Just stay here with me.
So you will see....

Time after time

Everybody came around

And I was dancing with you



Don't know your name

Making me ashamed

To feel the way that I do



The lights went out

Couldn't be without

It was a place to be



I won't forget

Greatest times ahead

When I was dancing with you

OMG!!!! gwen stefanis concert was fucking GREATTTT!!!!! me and justin were 2nd row and right in the center! IM SO FUCKING STUPID FOR NOT WANTING TO GO!!!!! we got so many great photos! YAYYYY!!! we went back to melindas place after. that was kinda shit! melinda is SO annoying!!! i feel bad that i've introduced her to things that she shouldnt know about. she's to stupid to know that she shouldnt be doing stuff like that and i know that she's going to get me in trouble! It was great seeing amanda on saturday night! I've been so angry at her for too long and i shouldnt of! no matter what I've said in the past she will always be one of my best friends, she knows who I am and i know who she is, and that why i love her!!!!!


jing jing... i'm not angry anymore !!



I feel realy alone and depressed right now and i keep thinking about things that i know i shouldnt. i know why i just dont know who i can talk to about it.




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gwen stefanis concert is only 4 days away! I DONT WANT TO GO!!! if i knew justin had someone else to go with who would love it as much as he will i'd tell him to give my ticket to them. I REALY DONT WANT TO GO!!! i hate thinking about all those thin cute people dressed up in harajuku lovers and lamb stuff sitting behind me wishing that BLIMP (me) would stop blocking their view! im looking forward to after the concert tho, we're going back to melindas place and getting crazy on drugs! weee fun fun! i spoke to amanda tonight and it was NICE! i miss her! i never thaught id say that maybe im just stupid! i dont know .... im so sick of putting up with melindas shit! i think i hate her! BLAHH!
i've spent soo long trying to make a jacket for justins party but it just looks like shit! i try and try but it just dosent look any good. maybe ive lost that small bit of talent i had.


BLAH
BLAH









It is the distance, that makes life a little hard
Two minds that once were close, Now so many miles apart
I will not falter though, I'll hold on till you're home
Safely back where you belong, And see how our love has grown

Gwen Stefanis concert is only 16 days away and even tho me and justin have 2nd row seats I'm not at all excited about going. I kinda dont want to go!! it's weird I dont know how to explain it. meh I'll get over it! I'm working again. another shitty job I hate!! I'm sick of being in warwick! I want to move, but kinda cant. I've had a shitty week!!! things will be better tomorrow !!!

When you are ready, I will surrender
Take me and do as you will
Have what you want, your way's always the best way
I have succumbed to this passive sensation
Peacefully falling away
I am the zombie your wish will command me
Laugh as I fall to my knees
Can I control this empty delusion?
Lost in the fire below
And you come running your eyes will be open
And when you come back, I'll be as you want me
Only so eager to please
My little song will keep you beside me
Thinking your name as I sing
Sing it back,
bring it back,
sing it back to me
Come to my sweet melody
No, you can't help it if you feel have been tempted
By fruit hanging ripe on the tree
And I feel useless
Don't care what the truth is
You will be here come the day
Truth do you hear me?
Don't try to come near me
So tired I sleep through the lie
If you desire to lay here beside me
Come to my sweet melody !!!

Bring it back to me.

blab b;ab -my printer its crap!!!! :(

// YOUR ROOM, WAKING UP //
01. What color are your walls? creamy coloured with lotsa posters
02. What color is your bedspread/sheets? black satin sheets with red quilt cover and pliiows
03. What color is your rug? rug...? no rug
04. Any posters/bulletin boards/designs in your room? yes too many to list
05. Do you have a TV? yes
06. Do you have a phone? yeah
07. Do you have your own computer? kinda but kinda not
08. Do you have a desk? no
09. What are your most treasured belongings in your room? babie and my harajuku lovers (cute as a cupcake) bag
10. What are your most favorite things in your room? babie and my harajuku lovers (cute as a cupcake) bag ... dah
11. Do you have any fancy lights in your room? Not yet :(

// GETTING READY //
01. What is the first thing you do when you wake up? put pants on
02. Anything unusual? nope
03. Do you pick out your clothes the night before school? Im 22 - no school

// HOME //
When you come home are you. . .
01. Miserable? sometimes
02. Happy? sometimes
03. Tired? yes
04. LEAVE ME ALONE? ??? huh ???
// OTHER //
01. Do you take walks around your neighborhood sometimes? not realy
02. What are some hobbies of yours? drink, hmm
03. Do you collect anything? lots of stuff i dont need
04. What do you do in your spare time? drink!
05. Are you in love, or at least falling? NO

// NIGHT TIME //
01. What do you do before you go to bed? brush my teeth
02. Do you kiss your parents/guardians goodnight, or just say "goodnight"? i kiss babie lots!
03. What way do you sleep (ex: on your side, tummy, etc.)? All over the place.
04. Do you like your life? sometimes

-------- Have You ---------
Smoked?: yes
Been Drunk as hell?: all the time
Shoplifted?: yes
Lied? yep
Betrayed a friend? yep
Been to jail? ?
Smoked weed? yes
Done LSD? yes
Done any other illegal drug? yep
Screwed something not of the human race? ewww no
Screwed something not alive? EWWWW NO
Cheated on someone? yeah
Used someone? yeah
Paid someone for sex? No
Been paid for sex? No
Played strip poker? no
Skipped school? a longg time ago
Skipped school to get high / drunk? ofcourse
Danced naked? alone - yes
Danced naked in public? no
Flashed someone? no
Mooned someone? no
Kissed someone? Yes
Kissed someone of the same sex? FUCK YES
Held hands? fucking stupid question
Hugged someone? yes
French kissed? yes
Had sexual fantasies? who dosent?
Stolen money? alot
Stolen money from family? yes
Stolen drugs from family? yes
Been convicted of a crime? yes
Dated someone because you heard they were 'easy'? No
Had someone date you because they thought you were 'easy'? No
Been called a whore? yes
Been called a bitch? Yes
Watched porn? yes
Taped porn? yes
Watched porn you taped? yes
Kissed someone in a moving vehicle? yes
Screwed someone in a moving vehicle? kinda
Tried to kill yourself? yep
Tried to kill someone else? hmm not realy
Told someone you hated them? ofcourse all the time
Told someone you loved them and didn't mean it? pfft ofcourse

- Would you ever date someone younger than you? NO
- Someone older? at least 10 years!!
- Have you ever smoked weed? yes you already asked this
- Ever been drunk? all the time
- Been in love? i thaught so.
- Loved someone who you knew you couldn't have? yes
- Gotten in a car accident? dose me hitting a tree in a car park count?
- Broken a bone? no
- Had your heart broken? yes
- When was the last time you cried? saturday night
- Last time you said I love you to someone: last night
- Last time you laughed: firday night
- Where do you see yourself in 10 Years? who knows
- What age do you see yourself married at? I wont ever get married
- Describe your dream wedding: dirty sex
- Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? no- i sleep with babie :)
- If you could dye your hair one color what would it be: probably black
- Have you ever been skinny-dipping: no
- Do you eat chicken with fingers or with a fork? both
- Would you rather give or receive? probably receive, but that depends what we're talking about
- How many homes have you lived in total? 7
- Do you play any instruments? no
- One pillow or two? 5
- Do you get along with your parents? yes
- Do you drive & if so what kind of car do you have? No I don't drive, fuck you!
- Whats your favorite color(s)? dont realy have one
- Do you work? not right now
- Whats your favorite food(s): too many
- Do you have braces? no
- When was the last time you went on a date? omg like 3 years maybe 4
- Have you ever been in serious trouble? yes BIGG trouble
- Why is the sky blue? who cares...?
- Who was your first crush? seriously probably melinda in grade 7
- When you meet a person of your preferred sex, you first notice their: clothes
- Are you the romantic type? no, not realy
- Have you ever been chased by cops? ummm not chased exactly


what a boreing night, I've spent about 3 hours reading old journal entries from friends, weird how things change!

1 step forward and 2 steps back, nothing changes !

INSTRUCTIONS
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!


HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
romeo (acoustic) - Basement Jaxx

WHAT'S YOUR OUTLOOK ON LIFE?
all good things - Nelly furtado

WHAT DOES YOUR FAMILY THINK OF YOU?
Sic Transit Gloria...Glory Fades Acoustic - brand new

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
run for cover - Basement Jaxx

WHAT DO STRANGERS THINK OF YOU?
alfie - lily allen

WHAT DO YOUR EXES THINK OF YOU?
Dont' Speak (original version at vh1 story tellers) - no doubt

HOW IS YOUR LOVE LIFE?
SLU#T - Dennis Christopher

HOW WILL YOUR LOVE LIFE BE IN THE FUTURE?
Take Me Back To Your House - Basement Jaxx

WILL YOU GET MARRIED?
Yeah Yeah - Bodyrox ft. Luciana

WILL YOU HAVE KIDS?
*Turn It Around (Space Brothers Rethink) - Alena

ARE YOU GOOD AT SCHOOL?
Don't You Know Who I Am - Happyland

WILL YOU BE SUCCESSFUL IN LIFE?
Konichiwa Bitches - Robyn

WHAT SONG SHOULD THEY PLAY ON YOUR BIRTHDAY?
it's all my fault - Little Birdy

WHAT SONG SHOULD THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
at the end - IIO

THE SOUNDTRACK OF YOUR LIFE:
Cish Cash - Basement Jaxx Feat. Siouxsie Sioux

YOU AND YOUR BEST FRIEND ARE:
Absolutely Fabulous - Pet Shop Boys

HAPPY TIMES:
Wicked Ways - Garbage

SAD TIMES:
losing you - little birdy

EVERY DAY:
Bohemian Like You - Dandy Warholes

FOR TOMORROW:
SUPERMAN (MHC REMIX) - STEREOPHONICS

FOR YOU:
Poison - Groove Coverage

WHAT DOES NEXT YEAR HAVE IN STORE FOR ME?
*All Over Your Face (Original Disco Mix) - Cazwell

WHAT DO I SAY WHEN LIFE GETS TOO HARD?
It's My Life - NO DOUBT

WHAT DO I THINK WHEN I GET UP IN THE MORNING?
Can't Get You To Shut Up (DJ DUBZ Mix) - MTV Mash ups-The Black Eyed Peas vs Kylie Minogue

WHAT SONG WILL I DANCE TO AT MY WEDDING?
Arificial Sweetener - No Doubt

WHAT DO YOU WANT AS A CAREER?
Marry Me - No Doubt

YOUR FAVOURITE SAYING?
wish i didnt miss you - angie stone

FAVOURITE PLACE?
bewear of the dog - jamelia

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
the others (TV Rock mix) - the dukes of winsor

WHERE WOULD YOU GO ON YOUR FIRST DATE?
sleep together - Garbage

DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Hey You (acustin) - no doubt

WHAT DO I LIKE DOING MOST?
deja va (beat REMIX!) - beyonce

SONG THAT BEST DESCRIBES MY SCHOOL PRINCIPAL?
so do i say sorry first... - stephanie mcintosh

WHAT IS MY STATE OF MIND AT THE MOMENT?
not good at being alone - the gossip

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
stab (album version) - mandy Kane

THE SONG THAT YOU'LL PUT AS YOUR SUBJECT
Merry Happy - Kate Nash


I can see it all in an eye blink
i know everything about how you are
i can understand exactly how you think
between you and me its not very far
side by side
you and i
with many many years behind us
you let words past us by
because we're always together
and we will be forever
such a special treasure
you and i
dont speak, i know just what your saying
so please stop explaining
its nothing new that i've heard




STOP think about it and its re-written !


do do do da do do do do do do da do do do do do do da do
i can be alone
yeah
i can watch a sunset
on my own
i can be alone
yeah
i can watch a sunset

on my own
i can be alone
i can watch a sunset
on my own
i can be alone
yeah

Haiku2 for daneo
awkward love it's so sad sort it out just give it up you scored
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things are fine! :) GWEN STEFANI IS COMMING IN JULY!!!!!!!!!!

I know who I am, but who are you?

Youre not looking like you used to

Youre on the other side of the mirror

nothings looking quite as clear

Thank you for turning on the lights

Fuck you, now youre the parasite

I didnt think you had it in you

And now youre looking like I used to!




ha ha ha ... good luck with that !!! I HATE YOU !!!!!!!!